My Sweetheart,
I know you'll likely never see this. I know you'll likely never check here again. Which sucks. Really really sucks.
I'm not sure I'll be able to stop checking for a long long while.
But on the off chance you do, I want you to know how much I love you. How much I will always love you.
I'm so sorry for everything. I'm going to work on myself. I'm going to become a better version of myself. One I hope you can love again some day,
or will at least be willing to give another chance for, as I now know more than ever how things aren't guaranteed.
I miss you so much my love. More than I ever thought was possible to miss anyone or anything.
Again, I can't wait to talk to you again, in whatever capacity that is. Just to be able to hear your voice again, see your beautifuly contagious smile.
To see your face and know that somehow, everything will be ok.
I love you so god damn dearly. I kick myself every day for not making it more clear to you. I really hope I see you soon.
Your Lovable Idiot,
Ryan
On the off chance you ever see this and are willing to let me know you saw this, just click this button. If not, I understand.